You May Not Be a Geek, But...

Whilst having a conversation with my co-workers about how we grew up and the social constructs in which we resided in, she directed me towards this great article; Five Geek Social Fallacies. In this article it outlines 5 fallacies that "geeks" encounter in large groups of friends.

Now I do not consider myself to be a "geek" in any respects of the word, nor have I ever had a large centralized group of friends, but I have had friends that have been and still are in those situations.

I consider myself to be a "people watcher" and I tend to over analyze social structures between people and this article was spot on to the groups that I observed while growing up. The interesting part about this, though, is that the majority of them I didn't consider to be geeks, but they all had one thing in common; they all were somewhat of an outcast from the "popular" or "normal" groups.

These fallacies could also exist in those "popular" groups, but I never really had an interest in them.

Although, I did not have these large groups of friends the author did give people like me a shout out:

Less commonly, people form a sort of counter-fallacy which I call "Your Feelings, Your Problem". YFYP carriers deal with other people's fallacies by ignoring them entirely, in the process acquiring a reputation for being charmingly tactless. Carriers tend to receive a sort of exemption from the usual standards: "that's just Dana", and so on. YFYP has its own problems, but if you would rather be an asshole than angstful, it may be the way to go. It's also remarkably easy to pull off in a GSF1-rich environment.

I have one problem with this, I don't think I'm an asshole and I certainly hope that the people that I do hang around with don't think I am. I may be a bit callous and distant, I may not invest myself in relationships and I may make jokes that are offensive, but I'm certainly not without compassion and understanding. This isn't to say I don't have any friends (Most likely I have more than you;)) or that I have any drama with them.

It has taken a long time for me to accept the idea that I don't have a large group of friends. I use to envy those that did, but after observing them for this long I don't think I ever wanted that in the first place. I'm pretty sure if you take the time to read the article you can find that group of friends that you know or knew and you'll most likely find yourself, that is, if you don't have a problem taking a look at yourself.

Tease Me (Drum&Bass MiX)

Thanks Brian for the link absolutely loved the mix!

Tease Me (Drum&Bass MiX) by Daffadam (Soltek)

If only he could see himself now.

I wake up most mornings thinking of the past. Usually because of a dream that I had with friends in them that I rarely talk to any more. I wake up with a sense of nostalgia and I can't seem to shake this feeling that if I had done something different things would be better.

"The grass is greener on the other side" they always say, but I sometimes really believe that things would have been better - more fulfilling. I don't know if that's just the way my train of thought is all the time or that I'm really just romanticizing.

I think about how I used to be. I think about how conversations used to flow so easily and how I was confident in being me. How my opinion matter and I had a deeper sense of life and what it meant. Or at least I romanticize about the past so much that I've made my past me more significant than what it really was.

I find myself to be more shallow, less understanding and frankly sometimes void of passion. Is it just age? Is it just the fact that I've decided that I now know somethings as to be certain. I decided a long time ago that I was an atheist. That god could not exist in anyway shape or form because of the cards that I was dealt. Not to say that the cards were not more favorable than others, because they most certainly were, but because religion played a significant role in separating my family. Although, those events happened I still had a feeling of spirituality. A sense of a greater purpose.

I knew at that time that we all shared energy with each other and that energy was indisputable. It gave me a sense of peace, a feeling of harmony with others. I used to read things about Reiki and books like The Celestine Prophecies. I used to argue the interconnectivity of everyone by citing new findings in quantum physics.

But all that is behind us now. I work long hours I certainly don't go out as often as I used to. I don't feel as though I have any real connection to anyone I know any more. I feel callous and angry most of the time and what I project is fake. Inside I worry and think of the past. How much time have I wasted drinking alone when now I could have been drinking with friends. How many times have I been conversing online rather then conversing in front? How many times am I going to let it burn me from the inside before I do anything about it?

If I could see myself today as I was yesterday, what is it that I would have to say?

Mad Elf

The winter season is upon us once again and I find my self gravitating towards some awesome brews. Most notably I find the Troegs brewing company. They have one of the best seasonal brews Mad Elf. Not only is is a tasty treat with chocolate and cherries it's fucken 11% alcohol by volume! Are you kidding me? This thing is 3 beers in one bottle.

It's really easy to drink yourself stupid with this stuff, though. It's so delicious and it doesn't have a bite that would be alarming. Keep in mind that it's 11% and drink responsibly, but drink a lot of it because it is scrumptious.

http://www.troegs.com/our_brews/mad_elf_ale.aspx

Could NIN Get Any Better?

I knew it could so I youtubed some DnB remixes and here is the result:

Seriously I have listened to this about 4 times already and I can't get enough of it.

Why Harry Potter is a dick

We all know and love Harry Potter. He's a hero with an astranged and abusive past, but I think he's a dick. You may be asking yourselves "Why is Harry a dick?" I'm not because I know he's a dick.

First off why the hell hasn't he banged Hermani(?). "Oh Eric he's better than that!"

Wrong! He's a self absorbed loser. A total loser. He doesn't have any respect for the people around him. In the 'Prison of Azkaban' he dawns his cloak of invisibility and just goes around pushing people around because he is upset!

What a dick.

He finds out why Hermani is always just appearing in class and he just laughs and pushes off poor Rons concerns. Why doesn't anyone think maybe that Ron might be mentally ill. Would you force the mentally ill to just walk about because you know they are crazy?

Fuck you!

Harry Potter is a dick.

NaNoWrimo

Well here we are November. The days have become shorter, Thanks Giving is around the corner, Christmas decorations and contraband are already being displayed in stores. Well there is one more thing about this month though, NaNoWrimo (National Novel Writing Month) and I am participating in it, well,l that is, in theory anyways.

It is almost the middle of the month and I have yet to even write one paragraph. You may be asking "Why the hell are you writing your first blog post when you could be writing your novel?!" It's called procrastination jack ass! I have yet to come up with somewhat of a plot that compels me to write. So instead I felt compelled to write a blog post about me not writing my novel.

So anyways being that this will be my first post I will always have it to remind me of why I didn't write my novel.